Guys! I have started my third semester in college and I am already bombarded with loads of assignments and readings and homework and stuff! 

A couple of people have asked me why it's my third semester and not my fourth, so I decided to kind of just lay it out and speak up on my experience on how I felt about college. 

If you are in high school and you are freaking about college next year, believe me you are not alone! 

Most people say you have to have your college picked up by junior year and I did but did I apply? Nope. I wasn't ready to move on from high school. I wasn't ready to grow up. 

I did eventually applied during my senior year, I didn't think much about college till after my graduation. Even then I was more focus of spending a summer of relaxation due to the fact I had graduated high school. 

Until August came and I received a email saying I wasn't accepted to my University because I didn't submit a letter of recommendation. When I told my parents they began to tell me to not be bummed and apply to other colleges, but I just didn't want to. I felt this rush of panic and depression. My downfall after months of being okay. I remember not wanting to do anything with my life, I remember telling myself I wasn't going to be successful at anything. I remember sitting in my closet crying because I was lost, I didn't know where to go or what to do.

After two weeks of complete depression, I decided to apply to another college and to that job my sister kept telling me about. 

I missed a semester, but I am not ashamed for it. I wasn't ready. If I would have gone to school that semester, it would have just been a waste of my parents money. Instead I took the semester off to find what I was going to do with my life.

I am now in school taking courses I find interesting. I have the same job I applied to that August when I had no idea where my life was headed. I love my job. 

It's okay to take time off, just remember you need to get back on your path. Don't stay out on the sidelines, walk the marathon. I would say run, but I don't run. 

I wasn't ready then, but in a way I am ready now.

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