KIMBERLY SELENA

Hi.

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I feel like I have come to a point in which I am not afraid to share certain things anymore. I don't know if it is the weather or because it is a new year, but for the first time EVER I am going to share something from my journal.

This journal entry is one I found at the bottom of my memory box. It made cry when I read it.
Because it reminded me how ugly I use to feel and how I use to hate my body.

Hi. 

I wanted to talk about my major since it is something I have been asked about.

I am leaning towards a English Major.
I love writing, enjoy reading and English has always been my favorite subject.
But don't let this fool you. I was very uncertain on what I wanted to do, where I was headed and who I was. At times, I'm still uncertain. I still have doubts. I still question my moves no matter how confident I seem when I take them. Yet, I have come to realize life is uncertain, you can focus your whole life on a certain path only to be swept off as soon as you are about to reach your goal.

If I could give any advice is: Do not fear the Unknown.

The Unknown tends to be magical, exciting and new. Something we all fear.
I know I want a English Major.
I know there is plenty of jobs out there for me.
I know that when I was younger I wanted to be a teacher.

Yet I don't know where life will be taking me in a month, a year even five years. Maybe I end up becoming a digital copywriter and forget to be a teacher. Maybe I end up being a flight attendant. Maybe I decided to be a teacher as soon as I graduate. Maybe my blog hits off and I get to do this forever. I don't know what is going to happen and that is something that tend to be exciting.

All my life I tried to make no mistakes. Try to keep it all together. Stay in my own lane, within my comfort zone. I have a list of jobs I want to experience written down in my journal, yet I would get so scared to try them out I made excuses why it would be best not to apply.

When I sat down and told my parents I wanted to pursue writing because that is what I love.
I was so scared. My hands were sweating, I didn't want my heroes to tell me it was stupid, because I mean anyone can write, how was I going to make a living out of it, what even was a writing career, but instead they supported me. 100 PERCENT.

They told me to do what I love. To finish a career. Get my diploma. Go after all the jobs I want to pursue. To keep my options open. That I was so young I could do anything.

I am not going to lie. I lay my future out. I plan it. I write it down and mold it to my liking. Yet, I still have doubts. But that is a human thought, we have doubts because we don't know if we are good enough for our own dreams, because they seem big. But want some advice there is no such thing as a dream that is too big. The bigger you dream, the better. Crave to want more. Crave to be happy. Forget how much money you will receive. Think of the experience you will gain.

I want to do so much.

I feel like humans are made to do different things.
No person was made to do one thing their whole life, that becomes a routine and routine turns into dullness. If you strongly believe you were made to be just one thing your whole life, you need to explore who you are a little bit more.

x x

Hi your girl is back and it's 2017!

I honestly feel like 2016 went by like *snaps fingers* that!

But don't we all?

Before I begin talk about the new year let me just explain why I have been gone.

I went on vacation and I was actually planning on posting, but due to some technical phone difficulties, I couldn't.
BUT they will be posted soon.

Now 2017.

Wow!

Last year I shared my resolutions, so I wanted to share my new ones for this year.

1. I want to stay healthy.

Body. Mind. Soul.

I want to start taking better care of my body, simply because I get sick so often,

I want to steer my mind and soul in a more zen and positive way, simply to minimize the depression stages.

2. Be more organized and procrastinate less.

I'm already semi-organized, but I want to be extra organized because that motivates me to procrastinate less. (This goes more toward my school work!)

3. I want to travel at least once this year.

4. I want to be more confident.

There is no doubt in my mind that I love my body, but when it comes to certain things I can be very self-conscious. 

5. I want to post more on my blog!

I slack from time to time and I want to post more here.

I love my blog! I love typing away my thoughts and posting my pictures. 

AND I also love the audience.

I finally learned how to see where my audience is coming from and my jaw dropped when I saw that I have people from France viewing my blog, which is crazy cool for me!

So thank you so much, to everyone who takes a few minutes of their day to read what I got to say.

THANK YOU!

x x

What is the best advice you can give someone?

Don't let other people's opinion dull your sparkle,
and for those who try, simply kill them with kindness.

People like to talk and criticize.
I lost count of how many people have told me that I am not living my life to the fullest, how I am lazy, because I don't want to go out, how I am boring, because I rather stay in my house than go out to parties and the list goes on.

But what they don't know is that I am living life to the fullest, in my own way.
Just because you aren't doing something the way other people are or say it should be done mean you are wrong. You aren't wrong for living the life you want.

My definition of living life to the fullest is different from yours and you have no right to judge the way I live, nor do I have the right to judge yours.

The reason for this post is because I was recently told that I am boring and have a dull life because I don't seem to do anything exciting or go anywhere fun.
(Disclaimer: This was told by a stranger who use to follow my Instagram.)

Excitement for me is knowing I am going to get home from work and see my mom, dad and siblings. Exciting for me is making plans to hang out with my best-friend. Exciting for me is going to the park, jumping on a swing and closing my eyes. Exciting for me is planning the next vacation with my family. Exciting for me is writing on a piece of paper, finishing a book, re-reading a book I already read even though I know the end. Exciting for me is going to work and being surrounded by 58 loud kids that call me Miss Kim. Exciting for me is having game room sleepovers with my two younger siblings, finishing a whole coloring page, watching home videos of when I was younger, doing a new DIY project.

I am not doing this post out of rage, because it is not worth it.
I honestly don't care what people say about my life because I am happy, I am full of love to give and I don't need second opnions. I am 100% real on this blog and my social media. I don't sugar-coat stuff, I speak (well actually write) my thoughts and opinions as they come, but I know I don't have a right to judge anybody's life. So I please ask for you not to judge mine.

We should always be encouraging and kind to others.

x x

Body Goals! Relationship Goals! Hair Goals! Eye Goals! Butt Goals! Eyebrows Goals! 

Like who knew these topics would be the trending things on our social medias, not me I will tell you that. Sure is fun to post a picture of someone else or a couple and caption it "Goals" with clapping hands and twenty heart-eye-to-die-face emojis. 

But the real question is are these "Body Goals!" "Hair Goals!" "Eye Goals" ETC. taken seriously?

ah yes, of course.

So many girls and boys, get caught up in this goals social media world. They want to be couple goals and butt goals and hair goals and whatever else their is to be goals at, is there something called finishing your homework an hour before the due time and still get a good grade goals, because where do I pick up my trophy.

I'm not saying it is bad to set yourself goals, but it is bad to want to change every part of your body to reach someone else's looks just because they are consider "goals."

I have been asked if I have every set myself any of these goals.

My true answer, yes.

But it was back when I was what eleven years old and I wanted to be like this Hispanic actress who was slim, had a thigh gap and perfect hair. She was my goals and guess what? When I began to give myself the mentality that I wanted my body to look like hers, that is when I began hating myself. 

It is so easy to get sucked into this whole goals world because it is literally everywhere!
A young girl who reads my blog (Hi lovely!) once told me I had eyelash goals... of course I thanked her but then asked, "is there really such thing or is all this goals phase a big excuse to change a part of our body?"

And she responded, "Yes, it can get very crazy at times. I have seen people wear color contacts just to be someone's eye goals."

Look, I am not saying is wrong to have a change in your life, but it is wrong if you are simply doing it to please others or just because you want others to praise you for it.

If you want to change something in your body do it because YOU WANT TO!
Once you stop trying to be, look, dress like someone else or stop trying to change yourself to please and be praised by others, people will realize who you really are.
And they will praise you for being original, for being you.

You should stop trying to be someone else's goals and be your own goals.

To simply have a strong mind, body and soul.

To have inner peace.

To live life to it's full potential.

To be kind.

To be able to show the world how much beauty there is in something called individuality.

x x