*sings Bad Blood by Taylor Swift* 

Hi. 

Welcome or Welcome Back! 

I'm going to be typical and say, "By the title of this post... you know it's going to be a serious topic." But, really it is not. I just been thinking a-lot lately. Nothing new. Yet it feels like I been seeing things a bit different and here is why. 

I use to think having bad blood with someone was "okay." 

*gasp* 

But it's true. I thought gossiping and talking about other people was okay, because, well, I had bad blood with them. I feel like we all have that one person or a group of people whom we have a "on and off" relationship. For example, you guys can hang out and be cool and next thing you know you guys are complete strangers, then you are cool again and then back to strangers and so on. 

Well, I have. 

Having bad blood doesn't necessary mean you guys hate and wish the worst on each other.  It can also mean you guys ended up in a odd place and you feel uncomfortable around them. It can also mean you feel the need to talk about this person in a "bad way" because they hurt you. It can mean you don't have anything against each other, you just drifted apart and in the process both of you got hurt. 

I had bad blood towards someone, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that the reason why I would talk about this person and the reason why I was uncomfortable, distant and rude towards them was because unknowingly I was hurting. This person was a big part of my life and as we grew older, we grew apart. We both went through a-lot and instead of leaning toward each other like always, we went our separate ways. We then reconnected then drifted apart again and now we are in okay terms.

I got hurt, because I drifted apart from a person I use to tell everything too.

But I didn't want to admit it, because I have too much pride. It sucks to be hurt, then for it to stay there and have it grow into a grudge. Grudges clouds your judgement and even though you are trying to forgive this person and move on, you can't. This is why I have decided to talked to this person again. We have always had a chill friendship, but then something happens and we just stop talking. I'm not saying we are best friends and we are going to ride out towards the sunset in a unicorn. It's just nice to be nice and not have "bad blood" with that person, because at the end of the day, they will always be a part of my life. I just feel like it is time for me to be mature about certain situations. 

The point of this post was not only to spill my thoughts out, but to say that holding a grudge/having bad blood with someone is the worst you can do. You are only hurting yourself because you are poisoning your heart. Some people will boil your blood and make you angry, but simply wish them the best. Be the bigger person. If you got hurt, simply admit it, and let it go. Write in on a piece of paper and burn it. If you then realize that you want to reconnect with this person, maybe give it a second chance, reach out, if they don't reach back that is on them, at least you tried. Even if you don't want a second chance with this person, be nice. Don't lower yourself to their standards. Rise above. Stay Happy. 

x x